about religion

knowing
"I'm ok with not knowing everything" Yessin.
The thing I hate the most about living is the unknown. It is true. I do not like NOT knowing things and I have noticed that a lot of the emphasis I put on belief is in direct response to what I do not know nor can know to be fact or fiction. If I cannot give an answer, I give a religious response. Am I, then, taking the easy way out? Or am I supporting what I "believe"?
Well, since I am not certain of what I believe, it appears that I am simply avoiding the question. I trust science. Why? Because I can understand it. I can grasp it. It makes sense. It is logical. I can touch it. I can practice it. I am a part of it. Science has authority. It is valid. It has "truth", to some extent. I can know what Science has to offer me. I can comprehend, visually and theoretically, the components of scientific discoveries. So why do I then call myself a Christian, when in reality, I hesitate to accept Christian answers over scientific reasoning? Should I not call myself a scientist?
Monkeys. I hate monkeys! Why? Because they make me feel foolish believing that the concept of one God is possible. The "creator" of God was quite imaginative. Omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent, etc. Such an entity is literally, out-of-this-world. No wonder religion has become such a laughing matter. With science on the high, how can you possibly give some abstract nobody the authority of omniscience? omnipotence? omnipresence? That is rediculous. Science keeps me well informed. Those monkeys that people evolved from are quite extraordinary. They can "communicate", they can form "cliques", they behave much like humans do. Doesn't it makes sense, then, that we evolved from such creatures? Doesn't it makes sense then, that we share similar characteristics as they do? What is it about a monkey that seperates us from them? Science refutes relgious explanations for life quite extensively. How than do we Chrisitians have the authority to argue with such logic and "truth"?
trusting
On the subject of trust: it is normal for people to trust their friends with their money, or with their house keys, or with other personal belongings, but it is harder for people to trust others with their life. Why then do we all trust the Scientist? (For the sake of those with relgious beliefs), our (eternal) lives depend on them. If they misguide us, we stand condemned. We often misguide ourselves. How often can you trust yourself? Do you trust your judgment 100%? I know that I cannot. So why then should I put my trust in a Scientist? Why not a theologian? Why not in God? Why is it so human to put trust in mortal things?
seeing
When I listen to people talk about their own beliefs, I sometimes hear hope. I hear them, and they do not 100% deny God. Some do, others do not. It is the others that nuture my doubting soul.
proof
Tell me, oh Scientist, without all the explanations of processes and functions of cells, organs, etc. how do I think?
Tell me, oh Scientist, how do I feel (emotionally)?
FACT: We live and act and abide to our culture, our community, our identity.
SCIENCE: Environmental influence. Genetics. Self. Behavior.
RELIGION: We are all created in God's image. Hence the reason we are "predictable" creatures. We are all the same through God. We will all live and act and abide according to the Nature of God.