take it back

if you could take back one thing that you had done in your life, what would it be?
nothing specific.
id take back the little things that hurt the most. wasted words that i did not mean, but said. things that i said about my family, about my friends, about myself that were horrible. i would take back those bad things that i said toward others that i never apologized for.
id take back forcing my sisters to eat less so that i didnt have to be alone in my eating disorder.